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From the High Desert December 24, 2010
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Dec 24, 2010 12:00 PM
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Hello All, I've read the posts of great stress in the past week. I've been there. As most of you know I lost a son to drugs in 2005 and have a daughter on meth not seeing me and talking to me rarely on the phone.
I sent a package to younger daughter with a wreath I made of the greens from this property. Added books for all and threw in a few other things, like play dough for the great grandson.
I have gone through hell over the devil addictions. Chuck and I have spent a fortune with "help outs" to addicts on my side and his side. We are done. No more free housing, food, money, favours. Yesterday we get a call telling us that Chuck's sister's live in boyfried died of alcohol poison, age 42. Another one died age 38 of the same thing. Then we send 200 to help with the wake. We will send no money. Mailed a card that said "Deepest Sympathy".
Sounds hard, selfish I know. Our goal is to once again become healthy financally and healthy emotionally. Otherwise we were going down the drain with the rest of them.
After almost dying in 2009 from stress I realize I wanted more for my life, much more. I studied spirituial healing, right brain thinking, timeshifting. Life is becoming richer by the day in spite of losing my two kids. Of course my life has always been rich, more than I realized.
We keep Christmas simple, Chuck and I don't exchange presents, we send out fancy cards, I put a big wreath of greens, red ribbons, tiny lighs on the door. We will have a dinner with my mentally ill brother and our 5 animals. It will be Christmas. I'll make it a good one.
What am I saying? Think of what you have this year, not about what don't have. Wishing, hoping, worrying, even praying won't change an addict. Most will come out of their addictions and you will have nothing to do with their choice.
You must find your lives again. No one can give you happiness. That does come from inside.
Have a Merry Christmas. A happy Holiday! Love and heartfelt hugs, Deb
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