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Please keep helping me
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Oct 13, 2010 10:39 AM
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Thank you for your replies. I went to a counselor for this and he told me I needed to save myself. I am trying to figure out how to do that. Everything you said makes sense and I will try to follow your advice and let you know how it goes. I feel so alone because I have other children and it distresses them to see me unhappy so I have to act like I am okay. I need someplace to talk it out. When I saw I had some replies I just started to cry because I need to talk to someone who understands. Last night at 10:30 I said, "I have a favor to ask you, please don't play video games tonight." He was angry and said "I'm leaving." I just calmly said "okay" and he left. But I keep thinking "will he kill himself?" Within minutes he was back home, and I thought it was to get his stuff, but he just went up to his room and stayed there. I left him alone, but it was quiet up there and I wondered "Is he alive or dead?" You can see how I have been affected by my brothers death. He was such a wonderful, good person and it never should have happened. I named my son after him. I am in such anguish. I need you.
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