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Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 6:11 PM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

Rosena Posts: 515 Registered: 6/8/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 7:34 PM   Reply Mistaken, I am glad you came to this site. Have you or your family sought professional help? This is not an addiction that you can just STOP without help. Above the physical addiction you need help with the psychological addiction. Sometimes this is harder to kick than the physical addiction. Talk to your parents if you don't already have professional counseling involved. It may mean that you also need some inpatient care. Don't be afraid, but also if you are not stopping because you want to, I fear it won't really stop. You have to want it, you have to learn how to replace your drug using time with other things that you can find fun, with new friends. I know at 14 it isn't going to be easy to just start all over but with help you can! Let me know if I can help you any more! I wish you luck!!

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 9:55 PM   Reply thankyou for caring and i am really sorry about your son and what you have gone through.. ): i promise i will keep you updatedd...

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 9:57 PM   Reply i meant to send that to ann oops...haha. but i really dont want to get professional help... i am afraid to confront my parents telling them that i need it cause i do need it.. but they think i am doing completely fine but i really am not... i dont want to hurt or scare them and i dont want to be seen as a crazy person...

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 10:33 PM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 1:07 AM   Reply ann, i do want to overcome it, really i do..but life is seriously not the same without it...i miss it and i want it soo bad. its been six weeks and i dont understand why i still want it this badly? isnt it suppose to be getting easier?! cause its definately not. i dont know what to do with myself i just want to die. i feel empty /: i dont know how much longer i can go without it..but i really truly dont want to relapse... my parents would hate me. and i hate myself already for everything that i have put them through but i dont know how much more i can put myself through either...

crowfoot Posts: 4 Registered: 8/12/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 1:34 AM   Reply Mis- You ARE NOT a crazy person! You have an illness, called addiction. Addiction can cause various chemical changes in your body, which is why you continue to crave the drug. It is very important that you get help and support. From a parent standpoint, my greatest sadness was that my daughter (also a meth addict) took so long to reach out and ask for help(she is 25 now). Your parents sound loving and concerned, please try to confide in one of them-you will hurt them far worse by trying to go this alone and relapsing. If you absolutely cannot do that at this point, find someone else you are comfortable with. A favorite aunt or other relative, a school counselor, but please talk to someone soon. Don't give up, you have won half the battle by recognizing that you have a problem that you need help with. I think you are very courageous!

Rosena Posts: 515 Registered: 6/8/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 8:49 AM   Reply Mistaken, You have said that you have a great family. I understand you miss this drug, but you have also acknowledged that you have a great life without it, so why wouldn't you want to seek outside help? How are you able to be clean for the six weeks so far without outside help? How are the withdrawls and how are you coping with the cravings so far? I am sure you aren't being locked up in a room without contact, so if you really wanted to get high I am sure you would have. Something is keeping you clean at the moment, what is it?

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 12:29 PM   Reply to be completely honest, the only thing keeping me clean at the moment is that i get drug tested every time i come home from going somewhere and i dont want to get sent away.

Rosena Posts: 515 Registered: 6/8/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 12:33 PM   Reply So what you are saying is that if the drug testing stops, you go back to getting high? But how were you able to make it through the withdrawls alone? Without medical help of any kind? Just a simple threat of a drug test? How long were you actually using Meth before you stopped....and if you don't mind me asking, what dose?

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 5:11 PM   Reply i didnt go through them myself. my whole family was there with me through them. and i wasnt using it for very long but i did it almost everyday for 2 months.

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 1:20 PM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

mistaken Posts: 7 Registered: 8/11/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 5:13 PM   Reply ann, you and everybody else are really nice and i thankyou all for caring for me. but i dont think that i should do this whole site thing anymore. i dont want to dissappoint you guys..sorry ): bye everyonnee.

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 10:17 PM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 10:08 AM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 10:10 AM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

Ann Posts: 646 Registered: 6/6/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 12, 2009 10:25 AM   Reply No longer on this forum. Message was edited by: Ann

cindykay Posts: 284 Registered: 6/5/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 8:04 PM   Reply mistaken, my daughter was about your age when she started using drugs and ended up a heroin addict at the age of 19. For almost 2 1/2 years she fought her addiction knowing she needed to stop and physically couldn't. She finally realized one day after several overdoses that she was too beat up and just wanted to live. She has been clean for 7 months now and it has been the hardest struggle she has ever faced. She still dreams about using, went through detox and ultimately had to change everything in her life, her friends, her job and got involved in AA youth meetings where she found someone who worked with her and was a phone call away. She was also in rehabs and counseling and is still under Dr. care to help contain her physical addiction. If you are serious about wanting to stop, get help today before you too are 21 and cannot get back the years lost due to addiction. It is a deadly high and will only get worse with time. You cannot control it, it controls you. I'm telling you this because I care and you still have a chance. Don't give up. Get started today and seek professional help.Your upcoming years are precious and you can never get them back.

Rosena Posts: 515 Registered: 6/8/09 Re: i dont know what to do.. Posted: Aug 11, 2009 9:14 PM   Reply To continue my posting, I want to say that the fact that you are only 14 and have come to this site is very admirable. It also shows me that there is something inside you that wants to stop. You said yourself you have a great family, so there you already have support and love backing you in your journey to recovery. I cannot stress enough how important professional help is, because like I have said the psychological dependence can be harder than the physical and counseling and support can help you through that. Coming to this site is a great start, but you can't stop here. Continue to reach out. Also, come here and vent, share, cry whatever you need to do. Ask questions. If I don't know the answer I won't lie to you but will research and make sure you get the answer you deserve. We don't completely understand your pain, but we understand your pain. I hope that makes sense to you and you keep coming here too, but more importantly, that you get further help! Talk to your family and tell them, if you are ready, that you all need some outside help if you haven't gotten yet!! I look forward to hearing from you soon!