My son is coming down from a bi-polar high and has written on his blog all the ways he could die and how I would find him , fall to the ground and be sad.
I encouraged him to write his blog and he enjoys it. But I don't know if I can deal with this.
He is incoherent right now. There is no reasoning. I get the double whammy if he is abusing drugs (which thank God he is not right now) and is going through a bi-polar cycle.
My husband just disengages and I was told today by another son that he doesn't like being around his dad anymore. My husband is angry at everything, the pets, our son, but he takes it out on me mostly. Our other sons think my son with mental illness is faking it half the time to get out of doing something.
I want to run and leave them all behind. We have a dughter with a disability and right now she is the only reason I am still here.
SAS I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through. I feel like a prisoner in my own home right now and all i can do is pray for all of us that we get through this and find happiness and peace.
((HUGS)) to all of my friends on this board. i'm sorry I've been out of the loop lately, I think of you all quite often and what we are all dealing with.